July 2012
Too much on my mind.....
I can remember being in elementary school and being able to count my ribs because I never ate. I started being obsessed with being skinny when I was in middle school. Those feelings are starting to come back. I want to exercise the hell out of my body until I like what I see. Shit I don’t want to start another addiction…I’ll just have to do what I did with cutting recently: ignore the feelings...
Smoke
I wanna disappear. I just wanna fade away to a place where no one can find me. I know this feeling with go away in a while, but at this moment, I don’t want to be here. Nothing triggered me to feel like this. It’s just all in my mind…..right?
“Once you’re in Hell, only the devil can help you.”
-Jigsaw
“I could be your beautiful disaster.
You could be my ever after.”
<3
“Addictions make us do extreme things we thought we would never do, so to heal...”
– “Michelle” (via anatomy-of-recovery)
Ugh I hate it when people are like “being depressed is stupid. There’s so much good in life and wanting to kill yourself is selfish and you should just get over it.” I mean really? What the fuck is wrong with people? People need to realize that not everyone reacts to shit the same way. Ugh grow a fucking pair and get that depression isn’t just sadness, it’s a disease...
Avatar the Last Airbender
So I’m looking at all this epic art of Avatar the Last Airbender main characters in the now, but my only question is WHERE’S SUKI!!?!?!?!?!?
Reblog if you're a girl who likes girls, a boy who...
canikissyourcollarbones:
Why hasn’t everybody in the world reblogged this already.
just threw my razors away :):) i’m done for good. i can feel it.
Walking into Death’s arms isn’t what I fear. I would stride willingly towards the light. But what I am scared of is…what if Death doesn’t take me?
I want (1) message that will make me smile.
As the world caves in around her she wishes to fall through the cracks.
Danger: I Will Hug You: Random Song: Forgotten... →
freesnuggles-8p:
A young boy borne
A young boy scorned
A tear rolls down his cheek for he’s alone
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The bell tolls ten above my head
Sooner i would rather be dead
So i can hide from all the glares
And the teeth the crowd all bares
I slink away into an alleyway to die for my first time yet
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Forgotten…
acid-lies needs us
Please please please pray or do whatever kind of support you can for Maddy (acid-lies). She tried to kill herself and her friend is trying to talk to her but Maddy isn’t responding. I know she’s a stranger to many of us, and so am I, but please? She’s one of us.
Rant...
Just cried for the first time in a while. Trying to resist the urge to relapse. I can’t stop thinking about my first love…or my second love. Both won my heart when I was with them (note that I was NOT with them at the same time) and I miss them like crazy. Even just having them as friends was better than this. N and I were together for six months and he was my first real relationship....
Being bisexual and lonely...
I want a girlfriend so badly. I’d hold her in my arms and let her cry when she’s upset. I’d kiss her until she forgot why she was crying. I would love her until the end of earth. I would make her laugh until her sides couldn’t take it anymore. And I would make her feel like the most special person in the world. I just hope that she would love me back.
Have you ever cried so hard that you're slammed up...
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Reblog this if you'd care if I committed suicide...
I don’t get how someone cam get Pleasure out of telling someone to go kill themselves. It’s just sick and when you say that to someone, they will take the words into account. Then you might really be responsible for someone’s death. It doesn’t matter how far away you are from that person, words still hurt.
I don’t get how someone cam get Pleasure out of telling someone to go kill themselves. It’s just sick and when you say that to someone, they will take the words into account. Then you might really be responsible for someone’s death. It doesn’t matter how far away you are from that person, words still hurt.
Last night I heard a cry of a baby and it got louder and louder until suddenly it just faded away. The thing is, there are no infants in this house. Then this chant came into my head: when all else fails, reach for the gun. It wouldn’t stop for the longest time. I hate the night time. It’s when the darkest of thoughts and the demons come out to play…
“And the world still spun without her…”
Anyone out there reading this:
sweet-love-4-life:
Like this, reblog this, message me, or whatever if you have ever thought about suicide, cut, attempted, thought about cutting, or something else negative towards yourself. I’m here for all of you. Plus, if you like this, I have a little surprise for you.
Poured a lot of my soul out on deviantart….it felt really good to do it.
Reblog this if it's okay to vent to you.
I miss Stanwood but I don't want to....
I miss them so much. I miss N and R and L and T. But at the same time I hate most of them. I hate them so fucking much but also I know that if we ever became friends again, I’d be about the happiest person in the fucking world. And right now…I really am not that person. This person is not someone I recognize. I don’t think I ever have.
theresmuchmorethanthis asked: Thank you. :)
Here we go again
days without taking a razor to my skin: zero
wow i haven’t been on tumblr in a really long time lol well quite a bit has changed….i haven’t cut in at least 1 or 2 months :)
